Last year, I wrote a letter for 2016 and I did not expect that I am going to write another letter (that fast) because 2017 is almost ending. I could not believe that this letter will be filled with lessons, struggles, epiphanies, and victories that I had in 2017. Though it is still refreshing to know that a new start waiting for everyone in 2018, I could still remember how I laughed and cried in 2016 while I am waiting for 2017. It feels weird.
If I will sum up my 2016, it is the time of the year where I learned to love myself more. But if I will sum up my 2017, I would call it as my so-far favorite year. Why?
First, I learned that many things are waiting for you outside your comfort zone. The thought of it still makes me scared but as I try pushing myself do and experiencing things for the first time, I could say that I already reached a far from my comfort zone. Choosing courage over fear may be hard as it is but suprisingly there is calmness and overwhelming rewards after it.
Second, take things seriously but do not forget to enjoy and be genuinely happy. Things in 2017 were indeed challenging than what I had in 2016. But I learned that what matters is to face those things not only for survival but also for happiness and for the change that can happen within yourself. For the times I almost gave up, the thinking “do my best and enjoy everything even if it’s hard, even if it burned you out” kept me to move forward.
Third, be kind and love the people around you. Hatred will only weigh you down but love and compassion will lift you up. Being kind to people that are causing you pain is hard but choosing to look at them with compassion in your eyes can make you not an ordinary person with an interesting heart. It will also inspire people to do the same.
Fourth, leaving the past is always part of leveling up. Time flies and people change. There may be times you will be forgotten by people who once had a huge role in your life but always remember that sometimes you need to face the future by yourself- without them. It is not mandatory that when you leave the past, you need to forget everything; what you need is to pick carefully the things that are worth leaving and worth keeping.
Fifth, changing is the first step in expressing yourself. I was once a girl who chooses to shut myself when I have thoughts in my mind, but this 2017, I learned that expressing yourself is not a crime. I was also once a girl who does not show her emotions towards others, but this 2017, I learned slowly and slowly to give gratitude to special people in my life.
Sixth, be alive in moments that can take your breath away. Memorable moments happen mostly when you least expect it. But make sure that when these moments come, you are alive and pumped. Take the energy to be alive, remember that these moments may only be a once in a lifetime experience. Breathe in, listen carefully, and feel everything.
Seventh, promise to yourself that you will not settle for less. Throughout the things you have learned, you are the one who fully know yourself. If your heart says something, listen to it. If your mind says something contrasting to it, think about it. But if your self-worth is involved, you know what you deserve, do not think twice to choose what is best for you as long as it will not hurt others.
Eight, for 2018, this is the thing that I will surely continue to carry in my life. Believing is to having faith, and having faith is part of praying. If you want things to be in their proper place, admit that you cannot do anything without the Lord. The will of the Lord should be the first one to happen in our life because it is so much greater than our plans. For the victories I had, His promises are the foundation of it. Claiming that He is great, and He has his own way of moving in our lives resulted in my life as an evidence of His faithfulness.